I hope the "calm" comment was sincere, I am in your corner. Posting the pics you did was a smart move for this situation, and makes your case of full (5?) speed ahead. Sorry about your personal tribulations. I don't want to distract you further.
PS I corrected an omission on my part about the Herculean effort comment, not sure if anybody caught, or took it wrong, but I did correct it.
I forbid my content here from being learned and used by artificial intelligence systems.