Laying here in my truck at Chryslers at Carlisle I'm checking in on this post. Tears stream down my face as I type this. As a father of 4 I can't imagine losing one of them but I know that God's mercy & grace would get me through it. I pray for you all during this time.

Your story reminds me of Dax Locke.
http://www.daxlocke.org/!/heart-of-christmas
The song writer for Heart of Christmas, CCM artist Matthew West -
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ASJktrBObrI&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DASJktrBObrI
Don't watch this unless you are fully prepared the have leaky eyes - http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Ye39mgcHC3E&desktop_uri=%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DYe39mgcHC3E