J, Man do I understand your pain! I love to race, It makes me feel like im on the top of the world. But things that have happened in the last two years have taken there tolls on me and my life. A divorce that still is not over with yet, not knowing if I will have to sell everything and start over with nothing. Not knowing what the next day will bring. Not seeing my daughter has caused nothing but pain in my heart. The economy and no luck looking for other work. I have done the best I can, and I try to keep my chin up no matter whats been put in front of me. All I can offer is this advice, Stick to your dreams and wants and some day the sun will shine on you. It might be cloudy today but the the weather will change...I wish you the best of luck in the up coming year.....Phill