i know what you are going through. my thoughts and prayers are with you and your loved ones.
we lost our little babies years ago, and we still aren't truly over them to this day.
as my wife and i have health issues, we have debated many times about getting a shelter baby, but we are concerned about what would happen to it if we got worse.
our babies are in the living room on a shelf, with their pictures.
i'm so sorry for your loss, and i hope time will heal your heart.