so sorry to hear the news ted ! i kinda know how this is affecting you as i was diagnosed with ms 10 or 12 years ago. since then, there has been drastic changes in my life, but as has been said already, this is just a life course correction, not a game over. just find a young buck to take under your wing and "download" all your knowledge into him and you will be doing a huge service to many by passing the torch . knowledge is something that must be preserved by any means possible ! keep your chin up - you ain't done yet !